Friday, October 23, 2009

I don't know what to do


Dear Via,

I personally think human is a complicated being, and I think most people would agree with me.
We tend to think that what we can not prove does not exist.
I used to be like that.
Now I don't.
The problem is, now since I started to think everything is possible, EVERYTHING seems possible.
It exists, but it's just not happening to me.

To put this aside as only a simple day-dreaming of a 15-year old girl, it is haunting me too much.

All these (what most people would call)crazy imagination keeps on popping up in my head, and I gets my hopes up on something that other people would say 'impossible'.

What if there really is people with supernatural powers?
What if there actually is after life?
What if there aren't only one God?
We can't be so sure that the Bible is 100% correct-although some of the principles they mention is quite touching.
What if?
What if...

And off till eternity.
This sort of thinking does not only follow me when I'm awake.
At night, in my dream, all the questios and imaginations(if they really are imaginations)I had, comes into life.
I can't sleep, because I have too much stuff inside my head.
I can think, and actually hear my thoughts as we do when we are wide awake, while sleeping.
It's like having several eyes and only half of them sleeping at one time.

It's stressing me.
The problem is that I can't get back to life.
The major problems are this:
1. I can't focus during class.
- I either loose focus, or get too sleepy to stay conscious.
2. I become mentaly tired.
- This is due to lack of dreamless sleep.It also somewhat leads to number one.
3. Losing the will to do anything.
- I feel like a pudding =ㅁ=
4. I become easily irritated
- My mom scolded me 5 seconds before

and many more.

I don't know what to do....T^T

SAVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks to this site for the picture

4 comments:

T.A.I Taylor O said...

That was so deep.
It was beautiful.

Sally said...

Thanks Tay!
I love your blogs too, only keep posting!

T.A.I Taylor O said...

Seriosly Sal-chan
You should put that in da paper
It's really good

Alisha Stafford Feitosa said...

These are all good questions to be asking, but I can understand that you'd be worried about the lack of sleep.

I don't know that I can offer you anything that would really "save" you, but running always helps me clear my head when I have too much to think about. I usually sleep better when I exercise, too.

Good luck finding peace.